Small and large steps towards the here and now: “My trust in existence is absolute. If there is any truth in what I say, it will survive. The people who are interested in my work will carry the torch, but they won't deceive anyone. I will remain the source of inspiration for my people. I want them to grow from within—qualities like love, like awareness, like celebration, having fun, and remaining unspoiled, with childlike eyes. I want my people to know for themselves, not dependent on anyone else. And the path leads inward.” OSHO. Even as a child, I sensed my high sensitivity, but I couldn't quite categorize it. Back then, I dealt with my perceptions largely on my own. At the age of 19, I attended my first seminars and workshops with spiritual teachers. The feeling of being connected intensified, but self-doubt and the often overwhelming experiences led me to break off the connection at a certain point in my life, out of fear and feeling overwhelmed by what was being revealed to me. When I became pregnant for the first time at 30, I saw the souls of my unborn children rise up the evening before the miscarriage. Our entire bedroom was filled with stars, and two of them shot straight up. It was an extreme and very sad experience—I knew in that moment that my children had said goodbye. Later, when my daughter was born and three months old, she cried excessively and was extremely restless, while I had recurring nightmares about her death out of nowhere. I actually began to doubt my sanity. Fortunately, at that time I met a wonderful naturopathic practitioner who recommended systemic family constellation therapy, something I had never heard of before. It was a turning point in my life, because today I know that I had such a strong connection to my little daughter that I received her innermost feelings in the form of images. In the family constellation, the representatives showed that my daughter carried within her the feeling of not having the right to live because her brother Elias and her sister Ivy died before her during pregnancy. All the problems disappeared after the constellation and the integration and calming of what had happened, the loss, the trauma.
Alexandra Akeesha Brand born on March 14, 1971
For over 23 years, the systemic method has repeatedly helped me to look at myself and my system, allowing me a different perspective on entangled and confusing constellations, blockages, and thought patterns. After many years of experience, I decided to begin training as a systemic family constellation facilitator in early 2014. I successfully completed this training in May 2016 and have since offered individual coaching and group sessions working with the phenomenological field. I have also come to particularly appreciate the Life Integration Process (LIP) according to Wilfried Nelles. The LIP training was one of the most intensive systemic training methods I have experienced. I can say from my own experience that it is one of the most effective systemic tools for arriving in the here and now and connecting with one's own primal power/essence. It is a remembering, a reconnection to our own innate self-efficacy and heart connection. Today I am a single mother of two children (23 and 17 years old). For almost 15 years, I had the privilege of being a stepmother to two wonderful stepdaughters (28 and 27), and now I am a part of their journeys as they forge their own paths, continuing to share a heartfelt connection with them. My life as a single mother, stepmother, woman and partner, sister, aunt, and friend has been and continues to be a wonderful learning experience and a reflection of where I still need to grow and gain clarity. Supporting families authentically and honestly is my passion, especially since I have gone through my own intense experiences and know that it is possible. My children are always my greatest teachers.
It was these milestones and these small steps that led me to take a life-changing and even bigger step. In October 2015, I attended an introductory weekend course in CranioSacral Healing® and received clear and unmistakable signals that I had a gift for craniosacral bodywork. Sensing the craniosacral rhythm felt like "coming home"; my high sensitivity and my sense of connection found another home here. Just a few days later, at the suggestion of my parish priest, mentor, and friend Manfred Senft, I embarked on a pilgrimage to Israel. One of my fellow pilgrims wasn't feeling well; one evening she could barely walk. I mustered all my courage and offered her a craniosacral session. For me, that was one of the bravest steps I've ever taken and my personal breakthrough—offering this to a complete stranger. I wanted to help and offered my skills to activate their self-healing powers, to connect them with the wisdom of their body's inner health. My first craniosacral session lasted almost two hours in a simple hotel room in Israel, and I thank God every day that I had the courage to do it. It was on that trip to Israel, during a day trip, that the very bird whose relief now forms my logo touched my forehead with its beak for three wingbeats. Thank you for sitting so still on the branch beforehand.
At the end of 2017, I successfully completed my training as a CranioSacral Healing® practitioner. Since 2020, my new CranioSacral treatment room has been located directly next to my seminar room, allowing me to offer a short, integrative body session as a complement to individual coaching sessions. This is a particularly wonderful way to envelop yourself, especially when dealing with trauma-sensitive issues. I am always delighted when someone finds their way to me and leaves feeling lighter, clearer, and more relaxed. It's also worth mentioning the origin of my connection to the teachings of Osho, whose quote I used to begin these lines about myself. Since my trip to swim freely with dolphins with Wildquest in Bimini in 2009, I have encountered Sannyasins, teachers, and coaches who were connected to Osho. During my CranioSacral Healing® training with Ramraj Ulrich Löwe, I was able to delve even deeper into this active form of meditation. A four-week retreat at the OSHO Center in Pune, India, in 2017 allowed me to practice the various OSHO Active meditations for six to eight hours daily, bringing me even closer to myself. For me, the combination of physical activity and stillness is ideal. The field that opens up to me in these meditations and the accompanying peace of mindlessness are indescribable. On November 12, 2017, I also became a Sannyasin and have since borne my Sannyas name, AKEESHA, which was given to me during a meditation in Pune. I am happy to carry this torch forward and look forward to shared meditations, coaching sessions, and my craniosacral work with you.